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Date:2004-02-07 11:51
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BORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRED

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Date:2004-01-25 18:06
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People wanting to find my soft spots. NO FAIR.

Hopefully it won't snow tonight because I don't feel like going to work when it's cold out. That damn building's heat doesn't turn on until 7 am and I'm already gone by then. And then the stairwells are freezing cold and too much cold gives me a raging headache, as well as the sun. Isn't that ironic? I can go in the sun now since going off my meds quite a while ago, but too much sun gives me migraines.

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Date:2004-01-04 23:09
Subject:Sobriety is highly over rated
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Things are clearer now. Way too damn clear. I remember why exactly I began to drink. I can't go back now.

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Date:2003-11-15 00:33
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I'm so nervous about leaving. Never been away by myself for this long before. How can I go without sex for three months?!? Or chocolate, for that matter.

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Date:2003-11-12 02:16
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I've been so homesick. Cried half the night and my eyes burn, but I still can't sleep. I know i'll never see home again, but it's ok. I can still hear the ocean in my heart. I don't know if I could return anyways. It's home, but i'm so far away in so many ways.

Maybe i'm not ment to have a place to be? Perhaps i'm just ment to simply exists, belonging nowhere. It's a thought.

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Date:2003-11-06 21:15
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Mood: drunk

I realise why i've been so depressed and quiet today. It's the anniversary this Sunday. This is going to be a hard week.

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Date:2003-10-31 20:15
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I can't stand people who will swear they've changed, then prove they never shall.

Hopefully, the blade will cut deeper next time. MUCH deeper.

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Date:2003-10-28 09:40
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My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
dharmakiwi goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Jon Benet Ramsey.
amethyst_knight tricks you! You get a broken toy car.
bibliophilic tricks you! You get a piece of paper.
book_worm gives you 1 tan peach-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
challenging_god gives you 10 light green cinnamon-flavoured gummy bears.
darkpaganism gives you 7 purple coconut-flavoured gumdrops.
denyeverything gives you 6 brown blueberry-flavoured jelly beans.
dragonwitch_108 gives you 13 dark green spearmint-flavoured miniature candy bars.
isiscubed gives you 17 brown chocolate-flavoured gummy bears.
orobouros gives you 1 pink lime-flavoured gummies.
traceindental tricks you! You lose 4 pieces of candy!
dharmakiwi ends up with 51 pieces of candy, a broken toy car, and a piece of paper.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

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Date:2003-10-28 08:06
Subject:owiiiiiiiiiiie
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So i cut my foot the other day on glass and got stitches yesterday. I was out in the rain afterwards, so now i'm paranoid about it getting infected. It's pretty sore, and a bit red. I'm watching in case it gets worse. Just what I need. It better clear up in the next two weeks, or i'm going to be grumpy the whole time.

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Date:2003-10-26 18:35
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German
Germany


?? Which Country Are You From ??
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Date:2003-10-24 13:02
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Mood: melancholy

I hate the fact that I can't be perfect for the people who need me. Ok, I hsould rephrase that: I hate knowing that someone needs something, but I can't provide it for them.

There. Much better.

I don't like sitting by and watching someone I know and care about hurt, obviously in need of something, my knowing what it is, and yet not being able to give it to them. I know i'm no superman or anything like that, but why, WHY do words suddenly escape me?

If I could so easily show someone how I feel, then maybe it would help. But when it comes to putting it all in words, I just can't. And I hate myself for it.

I want to be there, to help, to comfort, let them know it'll be alright. There's nothing to worry about. But when It comes right down to it, I don't know how to form it. I know i'll just make it worse.

I wish that I could say what I need to say, want to say. But I can't. And I hope that they can forgive me.

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Date:2003-10-23 23:18
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I'm going to start lying when I take these things, just to get nicer results.

Destruction_Demon
Destruction


?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ??
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Date:2003-10-22 16:08
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O, Death
O, Death
Won't you spare me over til another year
Well what is this that I can't see
With ice cold hands takin' hold of me
Well I am death, none can excel
I'll open the door to heaven or hell
Whoa, death someone would pray
Could you wait to call me another day
The children prayed, the preacher preached
Time and mercy is out of your reach
I'll fix your feet til you cant walk
I'll lock your jaw til you cant talk
I'll close your eyes so you can't see
This very air, come and go with me
I'm death I come to take the soul
Leave the body and leave it cold
To draw up the flesh off of the frame
Dirt and worm both have a claim
O, Death
O, Death
Won't you spare me over til another year
My mother came to my bed
Placed a cold towel upon my head
My head is warm my feet are cold
Death is a-movin upon my soul
Oh, death how you're treatin' me
You've close my eyes so I can't see
Well you're hurtin' my body
You make me cold
You run my life right outta my soul
Oh death please consider my age
Please don't take me at this stage
My wealth is all at your command
If you will move your icy hand
Oh the young, the rich or poor
Hunger like me you know
No wealth, no ruin, no silver no gold
Nothing satisfies me but your soul
O, death
O, death
Wont you spare me over til another year
Wont you spare me over til another year
Wont you spare me over til another year

Artist: Ralph Stanley
Song: O Death

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Date:2003-10-22 15:55
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Mood: uncomfortable

I was increadibly stupid today. I went to class without taking my vicodin because I didn't sleep last night at all, and I didn't want it messing with my head. I didn't think about it until my hips started to hurt, then my leg along with it. So I took it, but it was too late. As soon as I get home i'm taking a nice warm bath. But for now i'm stuck here.

Oh! And I sold out to quizilla, as well. I'll post the link to my new quiz when I get home. The filtering software here on campus won't let it through.

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Date:2003-10-21 22:06
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Mood: drunk

I dread Tuesdays. They always turn out the same. Reminding me of mortality. And it's the same thing every week. Get yelled at for not taking my meds, for not eating like I should, for not doing what i'm told to do like a good girl. But I hate the moodswings and depression and the mind games it causes. There's enough to deal with with all that added shit on top of it.

Detox is november 15th or 16th; I must check the date I had written down. The longest I can be there is three months. So, i'll be back within three month. No drinking, smoking, coffee, chocolate, cigars, internet, or outside contact unless it's an emergency. I hear they make you wear standard clothing also. And group therapy. I don't want to, but I know I have to.

It's a depression day.

No chocolate?

Fuckers.

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Date:2003-10-21 14:51
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Mood: bored

What Irrational Number Are You?
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<div align="center"><!-- shinylemur.com What Irrational Number are you? version 1.0beta --><table style="border-style: solid; border-width: 1px; border-color: #006666; border-collapse: collapse;" width="400" cellpadding="4"><tr><td style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font: 110%; font-weight: bold; color: #FFFFFF; background: #066d98; text-align: center;" border="1">What Irrational Number Are You?</td></tr><tr style="color: black ; background: #DDDDDD; font: 10pt;";><td style="color: black ; background: #DDDDDD; font: 10pt;";><div style="text-align: center; font: bold 12pt; color: black; font-family: 'Times New Roman', 'Times Roman', Times, serif;">You are <em>e</em></div><p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', 'Times Roman', Times, serif;\ color: black; font: 10pt;"><div style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', 'Times Roman', Times, serif; color: black; font: 10pt;">Of all the irrational numbers, you are the most intense. By nature you are powerful, although sometimes you can spiral out of control. You are good with money; the interest seems to just compound whenever you are near. When someone uses the word "exponential" they are probably talking about you.<p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', 'Times Roman', Times, serif;\ color: black; font: 10pt;">In some ways you and &phi; are a nearly perfect match. Not to mention how attractive &phi; is. But then, there is the remarkable &pi;...<p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', 'Times Roman', Times, serif;\ color: black; font: 10pt;">Your lucky number is approximately 2.71828183</div></td></tr><tr style="color: black ; background: #DDDDDD;"><td style="color: black ; background: #DDDDDD;"><table width="100%"><tr><td align="left"><a href="http://www.shinylemur.com">Shiny Lemur</a></td><td align="center"><form action="http://www.shinylemur.com/modules.php?name=Irrational_Numbers" method="post" style="margin-top: 0; margin-bottom: 0;"><input type="submit" value="Take the Quiz!"></form></td><td align="right"><a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/straif/">Straif's Blog</a></td></tr></table></td></tr></table></div>

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Date:2003-10-19 19:19
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Mood: bored

mors
Mors


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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You are Agent Smith-
You are Agent Smith, from "The Matrix."
No one would ever want to run into you in a
dark alley. Cold as steel, tough as a rock,
things are your way or the highway.



The Lasombra
You are from clan Lasombra. The Lasombra clan has
fallen from grace - and its members enjoy it.
Simultaneously graceful and predatory, the
Lasombra guide - and, when necessary, whip -
the Sabbat into an implacable force. Turning
their backs upon the humans they once were,
Lasombra give themselves wholly over to the
dark majesty of the Embrace. Murder, frenzy,
predation: Why fear these things, many Lasombra
ask, if one is meant to be a vampire? In
contrast to the Tzimisce, though, Lasombra
generally seek not to reject all things mortal,
but to shape them for their own
pleasure..

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<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/T/truly-dippy/1061402253_ktopdeath2.jpg" border="0" alt="mors"><br>Mors
<br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/truly-dippy/quizzes/%3F%3F%20Which%20Of%20The%20Greek%20Gods%20Are%20You%20%3F%3F/"> <font size="-1">?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font>


<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/T/trinitykills/1052781976_agentsmith.jpg" border="0" alt="You are Agent Smith-"><br>You are Agent Smith, from "The Matrix."<br>No one would ever want to run into you in a<br>dark alley. Cold as steel, tough as a rock,<br>things are your way or the highway.



<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/C/Capadocious/1066221716_nslasombra.jpg" border="0" alt="The Lasombra"><br>You are from clan Lasombra. The Lasombra clan has<br>fallen from grace - and its members enjoy it.<br>Simultaneously graceful and predatory, the<br>Lasombra guide - and, when necessary, whip -<br>the Sabbat into an implacable force. Turning<br>their backs upon the humans they once were,<br>Lasombra give themselves wholly over to the<br>dark majesty of the Embrace. Murder, frenzy,<br>predation: Why fear these things, many Lasombra<br>ask, if one is meant to be a vampire? In<br>contrast to the Tzimisce, though, Lasombra<br>generally seek not to reject all things mortal,<br>but to shape them for their own<br>pleasure..<br><font face="Georgia"<br>size="+1">

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Date:2003-10-18 23:09
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Yeah, yeah. I'm a fucking sellout. I know.


dharmakiwi's LiveJournal Secret Crush Stats
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No Crush

83.3%
Secret Crush

16.7%
Public Crush

0.0%
Ex-Crush

0.0%

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Date:2003-10-15 12:17
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Mood: aggravated

Why does everyone try to play the love game? Why? When I say from the START that i'm not going to play, then people get annoyed that I don't. Dharma doesn't do the L-word. How hard is that to understand?

I don't understand why he wants to play mindgames. I fucking despise mind games. I just don't understand.

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Date:2003-10-10 13:27
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orobouros 95%
amethyst_knight 91%
cyphinseth 83%
denyeverything 76%
How compatible with me are YOU?

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